Hello my loves,
Happy first week of Spring! I honestly don’t know what we’re going to talk about today but I can’t wait to see how this post turns out! How are y’all doing by the way? I’d love to hear from you whether it be through comments here, through email, or you guys are more than welcome to follow me and message me through my Instagram @jannymari. I’d love to get to know you guys better seeing as I do vent a lot to you haha. Y’all already know, get comfy and cozy and let’s chat for a bit.
Last week, I got pretty real and vulnerable in my post and to be honest that was just week 3 of going through that process. Something I learned since starting this blog is that I can’t rush the healing of any wound whether it be physical, mental, emotional, or spiritual. The only thing I can do is confront it, acknowledge it, feel it, and learn from it. The biggest hurdle I overcame was learning that it was okay to be vulnerable, that it in fact doesn’t make me weak but strong.
Now I didn’t put a time limit on healing and overcoming this battle but it took me a month and I can’t help but be amazed that it was a time period between winter and spring. Last week I wrote of this process and this week I can speak of the joy I feel in overcoming it. I don’t only want to share the sad things I feel, I want to be able to share my victories too. There is something so beautiful about Spring, a time for new beginnings, a time for growth, to bloom. Yes there will still be cold stormy days but I know that it’s to benefit the fields, flowers and trees in general. Daring them to grow again and to put aside the fact that they spent so much time in cold winter months. This month I dare you to grow and to bloom; to put aside all these months where you felt like giving up, where you felt sadness and anxiety overcome you.
Every season has its own worries, doubts, fears, but it also has its beauties and joys. Today is a dark and rainy day but if I’m honest with how I feel it might as well be the brightest day. What I’m trying to say is do not let your surroundings dictate you or your emotions. I am aware that during the Winter depression spikes in most and during Spring and Summer we tend to be happier. For me this Winter was a beautiful mix of both victories and battles, happiness, and sadness and I’ve learned that sometimes these overlap and it’s okay for them to coexist. Have you ever felt like you have every reason to be happy and you’re sad or vice versa? It can be very confusing but someone I can personally relate to is David from the Bible.
You see when you read the Psalms that he wrote one can not deny that he was completely transparent with his feelings. He didn’t sugar coat anything and in fact you sometimes question if maybe he was a little too honest. In reality he was raw, open, and vulnerable with God. He is the perfect example of sadness and happiness coexisting. He acknowledged when he was upset, when he was mad, when he wanted revenge, and there were times where he even wanted to die. He questioned God many times wondering why he was going through what he was going through but what I admire most is that even though he would start his Psalms with how he truly felt He always ended them with thanking God, with praising Him and acknowledging that His joy and strength come from God and not his circumstances. For those who do not believe I feel you can also learn that it’s okay to feel how you feel but also realize that for everything negative going on in your life there is also a positive, there is also something that gets you by each and every day.
I want to share this bible verse with you guys that’s found in
[Psalms 34:17-20]
“The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears,
And delivers them out of all their troubles.
The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart,
And saves such as have a contrite spirit.
Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
But the Lord delivers him out of them all.
He guards all his bones;
Not one of them is broken.”
As the rain pours today I want to remind you that soon it will be your turn to bloom, soon you will see the beautiful colors that your life is painted with but one thing you’re not allowed to do is give up. So take a deep breath, take a moment to evaluate yourself, your emotions, recognize all of the bad that you’re going through but also think about all the good things that are in your life. The people who love you, your favorite meal, your favorite spot to relax in, or leaving work to put on your favorite pjs. This past month has shown me that it’s okay that things don’t go the way you plan and because they didn’t I’m on a new level, new chapter, and new beginning in my life. As you’ve noticed I’m not someone who shoves my faith down your throats but I love being able to share why I am strong, why I’m okay with going through what I go through because God has never failed me, He has never forsaken me, and He has always made things new in their time.
[Revelation 21:5]
“ Then He who sat on the throne said, “Behold, I make all things new.” And He said to me, “Write, for these words are true and faithful.”
Now I leave you with this quote from my friend Rafiki in Lion King:
“The past can hurt. But the way I see it, you can either run from it, or learn from it.” — Rafiki
Till our next unpacking, have a great day lovelies!
Love Always,
Janny Mari
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